"West Coast"

Down on the West Coast they got a sayin'
"If you're not drinkin' then you're not playin'."
But you've got the music
You've got the music in you, don't you?

Down on the West Coast I get this feeling
Like it all could happen that's why I'm leaving
You for the moment
You for the moment, Boy Blue, yeah, you

You're flyin' high at the show, I'm feelin' hot to the touch
You say you'll miss me the most, I say I'll miss you so much
But something keeps me really quiet, I'm alive I'm a-lush
Your love, your love, your love

I can see my baby swingin'
His Parliament's on fire and his hands are up
On the balcony and I'm singing
Ooh baby, ooh baby, I'm in love
I can see my sweet boy swayin'
He's crazy y Cubano como yo my love
On the balcony and I'm saying
Move baby, move baby, I'm in love

Down on the West Coast, they got their icons
Their silver starlets, their Queens of Saigon
And you've got the music
You've got the music in you, don't you?

Down on the West Coast, they love their movies
Their golden gods and rock and roll groupies
And you've got the music
You've got the music in you, don't you?

You push it hard, I pull away, I’m feeling hotter than fire
I guess that no one ever really made me feel that much higher
Te deseo, cariño, boy, it’s you I desire
Your love, your love, your love

I can see my baby swingin'
His Parliament's on fire and his hands are up
On the balcony and I'm singing
Ooh baby, Ooh baby, I'm in love
I can see my sweet boy swayin'
He's crazy y Cubano como yo my love
On the balcony and I'm saying
Move baby, move baby, I'm in love

I can see my baby swingin'
His Parliament's on fire and his hands are up
On the balcony and I'm singing
Ooh baby, Ooh baby, I'm in love
I can see my sweet boy swayin'
He's crazy y Cubano como yo my love
On the balcony and I'm saying
Move baby, move baby, I'm in love

-Lana Del Rey

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o3SqUUoJjW8

Lessons in Life...

What do we learn from the people we know. What sort of matriculation results from having learned the life lessons they teach us along the way. Do these lessons not form us into the people we are?

Why, then, would we not be the person our loved one formed us into for us, but more for themselves, turning into the person they need us to be?

When we come to terms with the knowledge that that is what we, as humans are supposed to be doing, we begin to see the rewards we, in turn, receive from our people. One can also know that this knowledge also brings with it the understanding that it isn't when you fall in love with your people that you begin to understand them. The secret is that you already know them and that is why you love them. That is the greatest pleasure there is. Knowing in your soul that whatever they do will never hurt you. You're there, being the person they made you and you're comfortable in the knowledge and understanding of the whole package.

That , my friends, is the secret...

-by DeAnnalynn Arzola

"Stone Cold"

[Blackmore/Glover/Turner]

Every night I have the same old dream
'bout you and me and what's in between
So many changes, so many lies
Try to run, try to hide
From everything that I feel inside
But I can't escape you, or your frozen eyes...
Searching in the darkness
Fading out of sight
Love was here and gone like a thief in the night...
Stone Cold...
And I knew you so well
Stone Cold
Can't break away from your spell

Another dark and empty night
If was wrong I wanna make it night
But you are so distant, so far away
Your words like ice fall on the ground
breaking the silence without a sound
Oh familiar strangers, with nothing to say
Searching in the darkness
Fading out of sight
Love was here and gone like a thief in the night
Stone Cold...
And I thought I knew you so well...
Stone Cold...
I can't break away from your spell...
You leave me Stone Cold

Searching in the darkness
Fading out of sight
Love was here and like a thief in the night
Stone Cold...
And I thought I knew you so well
You Stone Cold... yeah
I can't break away from your spell
You Stone Cold... baby
I thought I knew you so well
You're Stone cold... Ice cold...
Can't break away from your spell
(You put me in the deep freeze)
(Oh baby don't you leave me)
(Stone... Cold, your leavin' me cold)
Stone Cold... I thought I knew you so well
Stone Cold... Can't break away from your spell

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fJ0SU6fqEBM

Tonight Venus in Pisces is forming an exact trine aspect with Saturn in Scorpio. Your head could still be spinning from the intensity of the cardinal grand cross event of the past few days, or you might have had a more subtle experience, with its transformational character becoming more clear only with the passage of time. In any case, this aspect symbolizes another kind of dose of sobering reality that offsets the wilder flights of fanciful possibility that you might have been feeling recently. With Venus involved, this one applies especially to a love relationship or other interpersonal connection, or to financial matters. Saturn in Scorpio points to unearthing any potentially unhealthy patterns and finding ways to stay centered in dedication and personal power, while Venus in Pisces symbolizes an inclination for increased compassion, love, and forgiveness. It is beneficial now to be honest with yourself and others about what is and is not working – recognizing that love can prevail and even thrive in the face of broaching difficult topics. Greater personal power for all involved waits on the other side of taking a practical and concerted look at undesirable patterns, and in strengthening your bond of commitment.

Image and aspect by Astrograph

Head spinning from the Cardinal Cross AND the transformational aspect of Scorpio moving thru my ruling planet has certainly, again, taught me more about myself. Yeah, it's a Scorpio thing...and it's a perfect time for Venus to be in Pisces in the attempt to find the honesty behind the intensity. I have taken a long hard look at myself and I find, I'm no different than anyone else.

-Dee

CONSEQUENCE
Consequence:
-the effect, result, or outcome of something occurring earlier
-an act or instance of following something as an effect, result, or outcome.
-the conclusion reached by a line of reasoning; inference.


Consequence...hmm, this is what I ponder; who's place is it in one's life to render the result of the consequence. If there is effect, there will be outcome. At some point, a line of reasoning will be reached, the perceived unfavorable act inferred. It is truly in the act of discovering the importance and significance of the perceived misdeed, where the seeds of punishment are planted.
So, again, I ask, "Who renders the punishment?"
Do we, as humans feel the need to punish our loved ones in our adult lives, a bad habit, perhaps brought to the table as a childhood hold-over.
For me, it's not punishment. Perhaps, indeed punishment may be achieved but that is simply due to the suffering of loss of what we have, want to have or have had.
This is not punishment, this is consequence. The consequence is the result.

Living in the moment must be correlated with a lack of the ability to foresee consequence. While I am not of the logical set, I do follow Newton's theory, as I believe this is the only logic in the magic, and it is truly Karmic; for every action, there is a reaction. It seems to me that the same people who are unaware of consequence are the ones who fly by the seat of their pants, living life moment by moment.

I find it hard to share my own consequences with someone who may not even understand the definition, which I listed first, so as to be sure myself I was ready to let the consequences of my own actions wash over me.
My actions have been all over the place these past few months and whatever consequence those actions have led to, a portion is filling me up now.  But before I expound the non-virtues of committing acts that serve no good consequence for me anyway, let's extol the virtues of said good consequence.
How about all the good things we do in our everyday lives. Certainly, those acts would lead to reward, ie: good consequence. Anti-punishment. I mean, in theory, doesn't all action result in outcome. There are many positive aspects in the act of kindness. It is inherently good for the soul, and when doing so, I would wish it was good for all parties involves. Of course, acts of kindness should never carry with them the anticipation of reward, as we do so, in most cases in an effort to benefit the people we are performing the act for. With that act, or any act for that matter, there is consequence.

In my observation of people over the past few months, I have learned that the people who fail to recognize consequence do so in both aspects of the result. One can perform acts of kindness on this person without result. This is the same person failing to recognize the inevitable consequence of their own actions. I am perplexed by those who fail to understand that every action produces a result, be it positive or negative.

Flying by the seat of your pants can be quite exhilarating. After raising my daughter and releasing myself from the contract of marriage, I boarded a Greyhound bus with little more than hope and excitement. This is my time, a little respite from that which tethers us perpetually to the life we have lived up to now. I continue to live adventurously, however, I know where to draw the line. When my life is changing, which it always is, I carry inside me, along with the excitement, a little bit of fear. I wonder, with bated breath, what is on the other side of the door. Surely I feel this way because I am concerned with the consequence of the action I have taken to propel the change. Consequence is apparently very big for me. It has been pointed out that I may be relating cause and effect to Karma. Perhaps this is true, but I am still terribly perplexed. It has been said by men far wiser than me that perhaps the lack of fear of consequence has more to do with the enjoyment of the ride. In this instance, we are to believe people choose to act as they do, uncaring or unafraid of the result. When I think about the aforementioned rewards from said acts of kindness and seeing in the person for whom they are performed a lack of appreciation, perhaps it is me who is enjoying the ride and that the consequences of my actions do not outweigh the negative consequences.

So here I was thinking that other people live in a shadow where no consequence exists. I had come to the false conclusion that living life in this manner was reckless and produces a plethora of negative experiences as a result of doing so. As I do a little soul searching, quite literally if I may say so, myself, I find that this is something I do everyday. Some of the consequences have been so off the charts amazing that I find myself reminiscing often about them, and some have found me under the covers, crying and shaking. Either way, I have certainly been guilty of appreciating the consequences and performing the act, anyway.
Perhaps we are all simply making quiet decisions in our minds, decisions represent the results of our actions, being keenly aware, and just not caring. Perhaps this is true when the recipient of the positive acts we perform in nonreactive in response. I had been thinking  they were unable to respond, however, maybe they are just choosing not to, not caring that about the consequence that THAT act produces. A choice made by all.

In any event, again, the master has taught his subject. I deduce that consequence is always hiding in the shadows, for all of us. We simply choose to react differently. So I will continue to choose to perpetuate the consequences of my choices, be they good or bad, and live my life in the knowledge that those around me are doing the same.

-by DeAnnalynn Arzola

"Beauty And The Beast"

You're not a stranger to me
And you are something to see
You don't even know how to please
You say a lot... but you're unaware how to leave

My darling lives in a world that is not mine
An old child misunderstood... out of time
Timeless is the creature who is wise
And timeless is the prisoner in disguise

Oh who is the beauty... who the beast
Would you die of grieving when I leave
Two children too blind to see
I would fall in your shadow... I believe

My love is a man who's not been tamed
Oh... my love lives in a world of false pleasure and pain
We come from difference worlds... we are the same (my love)
I never doubted your beauty... I've changed
I never doubted your beauty... I've changed

Changed... who is the beauty
Where is my beast (my love)
There is no beauty
Without my beast (my love)

Who is the beauty
Who... (my love)
Ahhh...
Oh... la bete... la bete
Where is my beast

My beauty... my beauty
My beautiful... beautiful... beautiful
Beautiful beast 



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=No0DtgmoJ0A 

*Her words, my feelings...
I cannot be here...
My heart hurts too much!!!

DeAnna

To walk past your space and to see it empty, no longer tethering you to my presence on a daily basis is so much to bear, I have to  write to get the emotions out of my head.
As I sit here, at this computer, at work, I reminisce the process of my being here. My position and what I have learned while holding it are things that have propelled not only my career, but my confidence and my hidden assets I wasn't even aware I possessed until I used them, efficiently enough so as to take what I've learned to a better place, with more income, which allows me to live the life I am supposed to. Something I have had a terrible time trying to accomplish here. You are so intrinsically responsible for this seed that was planted almost a year ago. In the performance of my duties, I hear your voice, leading me thru the process, telling me how to do this job with the Spirit of Hotwire in my mind and the customer service I love so much in my heart. Your words are my tools and I will never cease to hear them, to listen to them, to use them.
On the more personal and obvious level, I have gotten up every morning, looked at my closet, decided what to wear, which all sounds very typical, but there are those mornings when I can hear you say what color, what blouse, to the extent that you have actually said, "I'm glad you wore THAT shirt, today." While getting ready for work, I am thinking about you, that I get to see you, if only briefly, hoping our paths will cross, and reveling in the the excitement that comes with those moments you share with me that have led to this unacceptable turn of events. I do not wish to sound selfish, complaining about how this effects me so negatively. You are the one who must change everything you've known for two and a half years. I say these things because I want you to know that I hate this. For both of us. I hate this because it is my belief that you did what you did because it made you feel better for a moment and who am to judge someone who needs to get lost for a moment. I have to do it all the time, and in my attempt to escape my reality, or my Demons, I have taken a much longer respite. I do not judge, I understand, and that is why I did what I did to prevent this.
This place used to be full of you.  Your presence and energy filled the room in which you walked. Everyday for a year, I have anticipated that energy, be it good and exhilarating, or bad and overwhelming. Whatever the case may be, I thrived on that energy. I miss that, terribly.
I knew that day, when I pulled you into that room and told you about this call I was being forced to take, that this would be the outcome I had dreaded for so long. Imagining an end to our dance has always been too frightening for me to do. I knew in my logical mind, at some point it would come down to this. Trying to accept the logic in my soul full of magic has been something I simply cannot wrap myself around.
This room is so empty. A room which I used to compare to Stevie Nicks' "Room's on Fire". It's cold. You have to know, my dear, that throughout this journey, I am here for you. I know that that's hard for you to accept. Accept in your heart, not your mind. It's as if the fear of allowing such a thing is stronger than the need to accept it. You tell me I don't know you, so perhaps I am wrong, however, in the event I am needed, I am here. 
In regards to the promise...you have to know that your holding my face in your hands and looking into my eyes and promising me that no matter what, we will always have that necessary access did well in alleviating some of the fear I have carried that this outcome would happen. I never ask too much, I know you have your secrets, I know you'll talk when you're ready, I know sometimes the energy between us is too much and we have to back away for a moment. I promise to always honor you exactly as you are. I will never ask you to or expect you to change. I believe it's wrong to love someone you expect them to be. I'm all about loving the whole person including, but not limited to what others who try to change them perceive as character flaws. Asking someone to change, or not accepting the person life has molded them to be is ending up NOT with the person you fell in love with in the first place. I will never do that. That is my promise. The only thing I ask of you is that you keep yours. I believe you are the person who would never break a promise, because it would be hurtful for you to do so. That is why I wanted us to make that promise. It really goes back to the beginning, when I told you that we are supposed to know each other. We have these things inside of us that the other person needs. My intuition tells me this and I would never doubt that part of me. I am far more intelligent in the mystical realm than I ever will be at business. I know we are supposed to be here, at this place, at this time. Please keep your promise. That's all I'll ever ask of you.
I carry inside of me the constant prayer that you will be more than okay. This I ask of the Gods, not you. I wish for you to enjoy your life and to never be afraid to open a new door. Take chances. Live your life. After everything you have been thru, you deserve this blessing, to be loved for who you are, to have a soft place to land, and to not be afraid...of anything.
When one makes a promise, there is no room between the lines for reading, just the honoring of the promise, that's all there is room for...

Always, my love, always...

DeAnna

*p.s.-
I took down the "No Logic" sign from above your desk. I will keep it, in a special and magical place, as there is never any logic in the Magick, and there has never been any logic to us, either